The Lord has been calling me to this fast and prayer for some time now. I have resisted. Part of my choosing to write is a way of committing and being held accountable. It is too easy to pull over myself the blanket of comfort and to fall back asleep . . . So if I refer to this process God is taking me through or if I seem a bit more serious and thoughtful that normal, please be understanding. I welcome your support in prayer and for anyone that would care to join me in this journey, it would be an honor to walk it together.
Perhaps it's the time of life, but for whatever reason I find that I am awake most of the night, most of the time. Rather than resist it, as I did for some time, I have chosen to make it a night watch. You may find many a blog written in the wee hours of the morning! But last night I read through much of "The Heavenly Man", the story of a Chinese christian by the name of Brother Yu. His story is truly remarkable, full of torture, imprisonment, starvation and yes, miracles. During one of his many stints of imprisonment he fasted from food and water 74 days. I know that is physically impossible, but the Lord sustained him. His story encouraged me to "brace the winds of self sacrifice" and see what the Lord has to say to me.
My purpose in sharing the time of prayer and fasting with you is not to hold myself up as any kind of model of spirituality. Quite the opposite. This is a time of weakness and vulnerability and I know that will be what rises to the surface first. Pride is my forever battle and not a day goes by that it doesn't rear its' ugly head. So please, pray for God's strength during this time and that I will drink deeply of the bread and water that He brings me.
2 comments:
Wow sis, very encouraging and challenging and yet very real and human. The Heavenly Man... life changing isn't it. I would love to see daily blogs while you are fasting; day one, day two etc. I don't think it would come off pretentious.
Thanks for the encouragement. It feels vulnerable just blogging, but then to blog something so personal as a fast . . . . I think I will do what you say, no matter the fears. I truly don't want to come off pretentious, so hearing that from you helps.
Yes, the book truly is life changing. I am almost finished with it and so sad! I need to get Labbertons's book, ASAP.
Your poem . . . is that your creation?
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